in honor of this stupid holiday i'm going to share with you some stories. my stories.
hmm...where to start...
the very first time i fell inlove was with my best friend michael.
we we're friends since we were 7 and became best friends during the 7th grade.
what we had was beautiful. envied by most.
the thing was....mike never wanted to ruin that. so you see...we could never be.
but even though i knew that...i hung on for years hoping that one day he would change his mind ....
i turned down every guy's offer cuz in my heart and in my mind,nobody could ever compare to mike.
michael was perfect..he still is. he left for Boston during our third year in high school.
i was devastated.
soon...i learned to let go of him..still telling myself that i will NEVER love another guy as much as i loved mike.
next thing i knew i was in college. hating this new world around me. that's when i met dondee.. and we started hating our new world together.
he had just come from San Francisco then...was really annoying at first but once i got to know him i saw his good side.we became friends,hung out during breaks. he would always write these poems and show them to me. haha, i remember criticizing them and he would get so annoyed..but soon after, he would write another one and show it to me again.
february 2004...i found out that he liked me. i didn't believe it at first cuz he already told me that before but he never did anything about it. but then i heard about the poem. he never showed it to me. my friends told me about it though. it was entitled.."thank you". just hearing the words...i felt alive. i felt like i connected with him on an entirely different level.....
his intentions we're made known to me on february 20,2004. he told me he loved me and it was the first time he ever fell inlove. to tell you the truth, i was a bit unsure of my feelings back then. i mean... i knew i was falling for him...but something was holding me back. that's why i waited till march for it to be official. when i made that decision....i was SURE. he was the one.
dondee and i had an amazing relationship. we made each other laugh, we felt incomplete without the other, we constantly missed each other even when we were together already, we connected in every way, we built each other up, we were inseparable....
our relationship wasnt perfect but it was close.
last year..before our anniversary...dondee broke my heart. but it was at this time that i knew.....i knew that i loved him so much. so much more than i am capable of loving another person. he was everything to me and i just felt betrayed.
i took him back not cuz i felt sorry for him. i took him back cuz he couldnt live without me and i couldnt live a single day without him. we had another great relationship up until august.
im not going into detail anymore cuz it's just too painful to remember. dondee and i broke up august 18,2005 and officially broke up september 8.
he was my happy ending come true...he was my entire world. but for him i was never enough. so i had to let him go.
so those are my stories.....both happy,both painful at the same time....
the 2 loves i mentioned are completely different..and completely the same. you see... mike was my first love. but what dondee never knew was that he was also my first love....because he was my true love. so i guess he really was my first everything.......
right now.........................
i am building another love story. one that i hope will never get destroyed.
happy valentine's day everyone!
